I am made for more
Ever since I first heard of your strong faith in the Lord Jesus and your love for God’s people everywhere, I have not stopped thanking God for you. I pray for you constantly, asking God, the glorious Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, to give you spiritual wisdom and insight so that you might grow in your knowledge of God. I pray that your hearts will be flooded with light so that you can understand the confident hope he has given to those he called—his holy people who are his rich and glorious inheritance. I also pray that you will understand the incredible greatness of God’s power for us who believe him. This is the same mighty power that raised Christ from the dead and seated him in the place of honor at God’s right hand in the heavenly realms. (Ephesians 1:15-20 NLT)
What a beautiful statement - I am made for more.
I don't mind being real today. I have struggled with this week' s word determination. This really is my fourth week, as I participated I. Our church's corporate three week fast which stared a couple of weeks before this study began. The three weeks of the fast were easier because I was fasting, not dieting. But the emphasis of our study is to crave God more than food, so really there is no difference. Maybe I'm just at a point where I want to give up, give in and not care so much.
My Mother-in-Law just passed away and her funeral is on Saturday. This is a very hard time for our family. We spend days at the hospital round-the-clock with her before she passed we were running on three hours of sleep a night. I wanted caffeine and I wanted sweets to help me keep going and for comfort. Those are the things I was fasting so I couldn't. I was forced to lean on God. Now the fast is over and I still want comfort for sweets, especially chocolate. It is harder today than ever to convince myself that the comfort sweets can offer is only temporary. Then they will let me down harder, leaving me feeling worse. It is still the truth, but today it is hard to remember.
I wasn't able to read chapter five yesterday, but I'm glad I had to wait to read it today because it is just what I needed. I am made for more. The same power that raised Christ from the grave lives in me! I am not alone, nor do I have to do this in my own strength! Oh, if I could really grasp just what great power live in me!
I plan to meditate often on chapter five, it is my favorite chapter so far. I will be meditating on Ephesians 1:17-20 as well following the example in this verse, I will:
- Be persistent and keep asking God for wisdom and power every day.
- Embrace a true identity as a child of God.
- Find the deeper reason I overestimate or eat for comfort so that I may know God even better.
- Discover a hope and power like no other so the eyes of my heart may be enlightened. The same power that raised Jesus from the grave lives in me!