Dust to Dust

As y'all know it has been hard for my family and I to deal with the declined health of my Mother-in-law, and I have been crying out to the Lord for His peace. This song really spoke to me today, and I thought I would share it with you.

Keith Green
Dust To Dust lyrics

Sometimes it's hard to see,

Sometimes it's hard to get through to me,

But I want to do all that you ask me to.

Help me to follow through,

Make every day a devotion to you,

Cause it's dust to dust, until we learn how to trust.


Sometimes I wander away,

And I'm lost in the dark, my faith starts to sway

I don't know what to do, so I cry out to you.

And I reach out in the air,

And I call out your name and you're always there,

Then you send down your light,

Then you tell me, walk by faith not by sight,

And then you come shining down.


I'm putting your armor on,

Finding myself so suddenly drawn,

Like a moth a flame, whenever you call my name.

Help me to follow through,

Make every day a devotion to you,

Cause it's dust to dust, until we learn how to trust.


Sometimes I wander away,

And I'm lost in the dark, my faith starts to sway

I don't know what to do, so I cry out to you.

And I reach out in the air,

And I call out your name and you're always there,

Then you send down your light,

Then you tell me, walk by faith not by sight,

And then you come shining down.


Sometimes it's hard to see,

You know, sometimes it's hard to get through to me,

Sometimes it's hard to see,

You know, sometimes it's hard to get through to me,

But it's dust to dust until we learn how to trust.

Until we learn how to trust.

Graduation 2008

We had such a good time last night celebrating our wonderful children! Here are some pictures we took from the Graduation Ceremony 2008!

Rest

This past week has been one of the hardest I can think of. Darin and I have both been upset and tense because his mother is in the hospital and has severe depression and anxiety. If you don't know much about these illnesses, I can try to clue you in a little, but to be honest I don't know if I'll ever understand myself. When the person's medications are not adjusted correctly, or when the person is in one of their "low" periods, they are very difficult to deal with. They always demand their own way and are totally centered on themselves. They are also mean and will turn on a loved one in a heartbeat.

It is very difficult to care for a person with this condition to say the least. But God is faithful. He loves us all unconditionally no matter how we act. Within certain limits, He will still come after us even when we reject Him. I want to be like God is, but to be honest I am nothing like that. I find myself wishing for her to be out of our life, left to her own devices. The other part of me still longs for her to see how much we love her and that we can help care for her. She wants to move an hour or so away and live on her own, even after her health has gone so downhill and she has proven time and time again that she can't take care of herself.

My loving husband has endured verbal abuse over and over. We both endure rejection over and over. We help, we love, we do everything in our power and she rejects us and our help, and blames us to boot.

But I know that although I can't seem to figure out how to do this yet, that God wants us to rest in him. To jump up in His arms and let Him carry us. To hand over our burdens and let Him carry them. I trust God. He allowed my Mother-in-law to fracture her hip, a minor injury that only requires physical therapy, to get her into a hospital where people can care for her. We have to continue to trust in the Lord to work everything out for good, it's the waiting that is so hard.